Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Reasons For Feeling Fed Up

1) J lost his job a couple of years ago and we've been subsisting on JobSeekers Allowance ever since.Anyone who thinks living on benefits is easy needs to try it.We live on around £1000 a month,which doesn't go very far when spread around 5 people.

2) We live in a rented house...not a big deal but enough to piss me off occasionally

3) I suffer from depression..probably not a surprise given the two things above,but it makes life harder sometimes

4) One of my best friends moved over here and because things went wrong I lost the person who keeps me on an even keel.Bit selfish given everything going on with Madi,but it's how I feel right now.I MISS HER

5) I THINK too much so all of the things above are enough to keep me awake at night.

I work really hard at keeping this stuff from spilling over into VDOland,unfortunately I'm not doing it very well at the moment :-(


Madi said...

And I was selfish enough to think that I'm the only one in trouble. What can I do??

PS: Thanks for the post, I made it to the Library today.

Tess said...

If you can't tell all this to your VDO friends who can you tell it to?! Spill over all you need to Eliza...

Hi Madi!

Lozzie Cap said...

Eliza you might not realise how many times your pages have helped me to cheer up when I am feeling agonizingly gloomy (quite a lot so far this year), so I think you are MORE than entitled to have a vent if that is what you need.

Personally I think that GPs should consider prescribing regular doses of VDO-based imagery for depression. Bloody hell, it works for me!

Love from Laura x

JoJo said...

I'm so sorry that you are feeling down Eliza. But we are all here for you. We love you and care about you, and appreciate everything you do for us. Whenever I'm down or sad, just coming over here and to the other blogs cheers me up so much.

Is there anything we can do?

val said...

Eliza, we love you, and we appreciate everything you do for us in VDO-land. I bet every single person who comes over here wishes they could wave a magic wand and make it all better for you, and for Madi. Just tell us if there's anything we can do to help you.

How about a UK Vixens' reunion in Oxford next time? As soon as you like (well, as long as it coincides with a shcool holiday!)

mauigirl said...

Oh Eliza, I'm sorry you're feeling so sad. If ONLY I had the power to fulfill a V fantasy for you, or, make the non-Vincent stuff go smoother. A lot of us seem to be struggling right about now, must be something in the air. But I'm sending all good thoughts and wishes your way, and Madi's too.

vampireprincess said...

If you ever want to talk about anything even if you mentioned here before, my e-mail box is always open.

It's perfectly fine getting away from V stuff for awhile. And you know you have friends that care enough to listen and talk you through the rough patches.

Know that things will get better, but it's better to talk about them when you feel safe talking about them. If you let them bottle up they will just get worse.

ann said...

As Val said, if only it was as simple as waving a magic wand...

I do hope things improve quickly for all of you; you always cheer us up when the going gets tough and life is hard... it sucks

good luck

lotsa luv ann xxxxx

Diane said...

Hey, among the truly wonderful merits of Vincent bringing us all together is that we are a support group for each other when things aren't going so well.

Sadly, life is rarely fair, and those that deserve a break and some good times, are left wondering why the hell they bother getting up in the mornings. I'm sure it must feel like you're in a never-ending tunnel, but hopefully things WILL improve, and you KNOW we all love you and appreciate all the wonderful things you do for us.


Mariajosé said...

Erenow it had never regretted being able to express so much in English well everything what I sit, I will do it in Spanish, I hope that he finds someone who it translates to you.

Me lo he pensado mucho antes de intervenir, no quiero ser una intrusa; pero siento la necesidad de escribir estas líneas porque hace mucho tiempo que visito su página y quiero que sepa que lamento muchísimo su situación y deseo de corazón que todo le empiece a ir mejor.

Sólo tengo palabras de agradecimiento para usted por todo lo que está haciendo con su página que, a mí personalmente, me ayudó mucho en un tiempo en el que yo no estaba bien y que me servía para evadirme en esos malos momentos. Por eso ahora me siento impotente, porque me gustaría poder ayudarla como usted me ayudó.

There know you who in Spain has a friend for what you need.

Thanks, Thanks, Thanks for everything what has done for us.

Madi said...

Maria Jose - translation:
"I've thought about it a lot, I don't want to be an intruder, but I need to write these lines because I've been visiting your page for a long time, and I want you to know that I'm really sorry about your situation, and I hope from my heart that things will be better.
I have only appreciation for you, for everything you do on this page that personally helped me very much in times I didn't feel well, and it helped me escape those bad moments. I feel powerless because I'd like to be able to help you like you've helped me."

Isn't it good thing that I've learnt Spanish? ;-P
Hi everybody! xxx